I think everyone has the desire in their life to be the best at something that touches them, that reaches them.
People don’t like love, they like that flittery flirty feeling. They don’t love love - love is sacrificial, love is ferocious, it’s not emotive. Our culture doesn’t love love, it loves the idea of love. It wants the emotion without paying anything for it. It’s ridiculous.
My life is a struggle between my need for acceptance, my fear of rejection, and a desire to not care at all.